Even though I don’t boast, I hate not being the best at something. Which is stupid because I’m not the best at MANY THINGS. Of course.
I’m not the best at MOST THINGS, to be fair.
And yet, my frustration when I see other people achieving so much, and being so fucking ace with it, is quite honestly insurmountable. It’s jealousy, and it’s stupid.
Even worse is sitting here feeling like I’m busting my balls and going nowhere, and whining about why shit doesn’t seem to be happening.
Which is fucking stupid, because, surely I’m making shit happen, right?
IS IT ENOUGH, though?
I guess not.
I blame my history of always training to be the best.
What I SHOULD be doing is stop being a whiny sod and just do something already.
*Stares blankly at self*